Marilyn Muses |

Wanting

I have a yellowed, framed cartoon on my bookshelf that’s been there for many years. I look at it often and relate to its message each time I read it. I finally looked it up to...

I Imagine

I imagine a circle of love and support surrounding me all the time, with a loving energetic connection flowing between us, reaching our souls, where we all feel nurtured,...

Marilyn Published in “Light of Consciousness” Magazine , August 2022

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The Void

My aunt Molly would always complain about different ailments, some she had, some she didn’t. Illness consumed her and it didn’t appear necessary to actually be diagnosed for Aunt...

Time Heals All Wounds

It was a moment of slow motion — I was watching it all happen, helpless to stop it. It’s a vision that I see many times over in my head. I was coming out of a store with a spring...

I Am Not Comfortable in My Body

There’s an old photo of me by the white picket fence in front of our house when I was about 5 years old — I wore a pair of peddle pushers, now known as capris. They were black...

The Tarot Card of Strength

When I was diagnosed with cancer, in March 2020, I kept hearing “you got this” “you are the strongest person I know” and “you’ll make it through”. While that’s all true, It’s...

Feet

“Pick them up and lay them down!” Why was he saying that to us? What was wrong with the way we moved? Considering what he made us wear, it’s a miracle we walked at all....

The Wink

My dad was a devoted family man. He worked 2 jobs to support his 4 children and took us on vacations and outings in his Chevy station wagon. He had itchy woolen blankets for us...

Trust in the Garmin

It was somewhere in the 1990’s when my husband and I bought our first Garmin navigational system. We plugged It into the space for the cigarette lighter (now called the USB...

Gears, Bells, and Whistles

Growing up in our house on East 9th Street in Brooklyn, we had a desk that fit in the corner of our dining room - a caddy corner desk of white oak that I enjoyed sitting under. I...

Angels Among Us

When I was a child, the NYC public school system had something called release time on Wednesday afternoons. We would leave school at 2:00 and go for religious instruction. I was...

Out of the Cage

Sometime during the spring of 2021 I felt a protruding lymph node near my groin, the spot where lymphoma started over 2 years ago. I called my oncologist right away and they...

Marilyn Muses in ‘Coping With Cancer’ Magazine

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Cancer and Me

My birthday is in July but on March 26, 2020, my life started anew when I was diagnosed with cancer. Learning to live with that is an entirely new life experience. I...

A Coincidence in Dates

As I was looking at my upcoming appointments at Memorial Sloan Kettering, I noticed something amazing, something that has a constant impact on my life in both physical and...

Who Am I?

I remember growing up in the 1950’s watching “Million Dollar Movies” — the same movie was shown continuously during the week and all day on the weekend. There was one movie...

The Weight of Life

My mother’s ongoing weight issues led her to go to Weight Watcher’s when I was about 12 years old. Her sister’s, also overweight, made fun of her for paying money to lose weight....

Coming Out of the Closet

It’s been 11 months after chemotherapy and stem-cell transplant, My hair is growing back, thinner and finer, and I am 60 pounds lighter. I go from feeling energetic and...

Challenges

Part 1- Living When I was a teen, my mother wanted me to train to be a secretary, get a job, and find a nice businessman...