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Marilyn Muses

On Life, Cancer, and other stuff

Out of the Cage

Sometime during the spring of 2021 I felt a protruding lymph node  near my groin, the spot where lymphoma started over 2 years ago. I called my oncologist right away and they...

Cancer and Me

     My birthday is in July but on March 26, 2020,  my life  started anew when I was diagnosed with cancer. Learning to live with that is an entirely new life experience.      I...

A Coincidence in Dates

     As I was looking at my upcoming appointments at Memorial Sloan Kettering, I noticed something amazing, something that has a constant impact on my life in both physical and...

Who Am I?

     I remember growing up in the 1950’s watching “Million Dollar Movies” — the same movie was shown continuously during the week and all day on the weekend. There was one movie...

The Weight of Life

My mother’s ongoing weight issues led her to go to Weight Watcher’s when I was about 12 years old. Her sister’s, also overweight, made fun of her for paying money to lose weight....

Coming Out of the Closet

    It’s been 11 months after chemotherapy and stem-cell transplant, My hair is growing back, thinner and finer, and I am 60 pounds lighter. I go from feeling energetic and...

Challenges

          Part 1- Living       When I was a teen, my mother wanted me to train to be a secretary, get a job, and find a nice businessman...

Here, I can fix it

  My Dad was a person who was able to fix just about anything. He was able to look at a broken machine or household gadget that was malfunctioning and know exactly what was...

Spring

It’s spring, 2021! I no longer have to bundle up with hats, scarves, or gloves and I can now take my daily walk without my shoulders scrunched up to my ears.  Instead, I  walk...

The Quilt of Life

  Handmade quilts are fascinating to me; the combinations of patterns, colors, and designs are so intricate and precise. Each individual piece of fabric — and there are...

Before and After

  The Life of Brian first aired in 1979. It’s a Monty Python movie, so it has a unique interpretation of events that took place in Biblical times; the retold story is...

Mom and the Firefighter

In January 2019, a firefighter fell to his death on the Belt Parkway in Brooklyn, responding to a crash. He was trying to climb over the barriers that separate the eastbound and...

Small Talk

Growing up, my two sisters, brother, and I all wanted to be the first to look at the newspaper my father brought home with him after work.  We scoured it for articles to cut out...

Scars

As a kid, it always seemed that I had scabs on my knees. I would pick at them, they would bleed again, and it was like I had a fresh bruise. I wonder now if I was clumsy and fell...

The Two C’s

  In the last years of my mother’s life, she struggled with dementia. She was a mild-mannered woman who enjoyed reminiscing, so whenever I visited, we would look through...

A New Hairstyle

My husband and I went to midnight mass on Christmas Eve last year, where we met up with a teacher he used to work with. I didn’t know her as well as my husband did because they...

The New Normal

The New Normal   “The new normal.” This is a term I’ve been hearing a lot lately. I’ve heard it in relation to COVID-19, which is not going away anytime soon. We are all...

HELP

  I was about seven years old when my parents discovered that I was born with very little vision in my right eye. My left eye, it turns out, did the work for both of them....

Clearing the Isms of Communication

Clearing the Isms of Communication   Just before starting chemotherapy, for T-cell lymphoma, I needed a biopsy of an enlarged lymph node. When I met with the surgeon who...