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Marilyn Muses

On Life, Cancer, and other stuff

The Tarot Card of Strength

When I was diagnosed with cancer, in March 2020, I kept hearing “you got this” “you are the strongest person I know” and “you’ll make it through”. While that’s all true, It’s...

Feet

“Pick them up and lay them down!” Why was he saying that to us? What was wrong with the way we moved?  Considering what he made us wear, it’s a miracle we walked at all....

The Wink

My dad was a devoted family man. He worked 2 jobs to support his 4 children and took us on vacations and outings in his Chevy station wagon. He had itchy woolen blankets for us...

Trust in the Garmin

It was somewhere in the 1990’s when my husband and I bought our first Garmin navigational system. We plugged It into the space for the cigarette lighter (now called the USB...

Gears, Bells, and Whistles

Growing up in our house on East 9th Street in Brooklyn, we had a desk that fit in the corner of our dining room - a caddy corner desk of white oak that I enjoyed sitting under. I...

Angels Among Us

 When I was a child, the NYC public school system had something called release time on Wednesday afternoons. We would leave school at 2:00 and go for religious instruction. I was...

Out of the Cage

Sometime during the spring of 2021 I felt a protruding lymph node  near my groin, the spot where lymphoma started over 2 years ago. I called my oncologist right away and they...

Cancer and Me

     My birthday is in July but on March 26, 2020,  my life  started anew when I was diagnosed with cancer. Learning to live with that is an entirely new life experience.      I...

A Coincidence in Dates

     As I was looking at my upcoming appointments at Memorial Sloan Kettering, I noticed something amazing, something that has a constant impact on my life in both physical and...

Who Am I?

     I remember growing up in the 1950’s watching “Million Dollar Movies” — the same movie was shown continuously during the week and all day on the weekend. There was one movie...

The Weight of Life

My mother’s ongoing weight issues led her to go to Weight Watcher’s when I was about 12 years old. Her sister’s, also overweight, made fun of her for paying money to lose weight....

Coming Out of the Closet

    It’s been 11 months after chemotherapy and stem-cell transplant, My hair is growing back, thinner and finer, and I am 60 pounds lighter. I go from feeling energetic and...

Challenges

          Part 1- Living       When I was a teen, my mother wanted me to train to be a secretary, get a job, and find a nice businessman...

Here, I can fix it

  My Dad was a person who was able to fix just about anything. He was able to look at a broken machine or household gadget that was malfunctioning and know exactly what was...

Spring

It’s spring, 2021! I no longer have to bundle up with hats, scarves, or gloves and I can now take my daily walk without my shoulders scrunched up to my ears.  Instead, I  walk...

The Quilt of Life

  Handmade quilts are fascinating to me; the combinations of patterns, colors, and designs are so intricate and precise. Each individual piece of fabric — and there are...

Before and After

  The Life of Brian first aired in 1979. It’s a Monty Python movie, so it has a unique interpretation of events that took place in Biblical times; the retold story is...

Mom and the Firefighter

In January 2019, a firefighter fell to his death on the Belt Parkway in Brooklyn, responding to a crash. He was trying to climb over the barriers that separate the eastbound and...

Small Talk

Growing up, my two sisters, brother, and I all wanted to be the first to look at the newspaper my father brought home with him after work.  We scoured it for articles to cut out...