Ongoing energy spent creating my life
But insecurity made me hide, causing me strife
It’s like a roller coaster struggling up to who knows where
I was hiding my inner resources, use them? I didn’t dare.
I reached the top anyway, finding accomplishment and relief
But I was diagnosed with cancer, shattered beyond belief
The roller coaster is spiraling downward and I don’t know what to do
Doctors say chemotherapy, more treatment then I will be through
I am in remission, top of the roller coaster one more
Too scared to enjoy it— life, What’s it all for?
But cancer is like ripping off a band aid in one quick move
Underneath are feelings and desires that need to find their groove
A host of feelings are expressed, a need I do not lack
As now there’s a recurrence and the roller coaster is out of whack
The good thing about cancer is that my feelings have found a voice
I wish it were easier but I didn’t have a choice
The roller coaster climbs up, clinical trial and remission once more
Looking for wellness again, but not like before
Everything is temporary and life can be hard
But I seek peace and comfort, as I’m dealt another card