The last 2 pet scans were basically the same,
A little consistency helps me feel more sane.
I have low level lymphoma that is not going away
But my clinical trial pill keeps me from the fray
I’ve been taking this pill for a year and a half
Getting lots of attention from the MSK staff.
In February of this year it started not to work
Mu oncologist was puzzled which made me go berserk
I depended on him to make it all go away
So recurrences and remissions was certainly not okay
But acceptance is the only route to keeping my sanity
My emotional ups and downs sometimes feels like a calamity
But if I accept all the feelings that lie deep inside
Express them without fear, it might save my hide.
But for now 2 similar pet scans gives me a break
I won’t get used to it, that will be a mistake.
I’ll enjoy the calmness of this new plateau
And try not to wonder when my lymph nodes will once again grow